hello! and welcome to our blog :) i've never really done one of these before so bare with me. im going to be open and honest on this blog and try to share what God is doing in my life...which may mean that at sometimes i might share my perfectly real feelings...so read this with that in mind...and dont judge me for my shortcomings haha :)
ever since we moved to our new house (in may) ive been feeling a little lonely. we switched church campuses and moved about 20 minutes away some of my close friends. not that distance should change a friendship...but it some ways it has. its just not as easy as it once was to meet a friend at the park or mall with just a few minutes notice. some days i really miss those friends that i once could do that with. but whats even harder for me is dealing with and accepting the fact that i really dont have any 'deep' friendships currently. now dont get me wrong...God has blessed me with friends that i love...but do you understand what i mean when i say 'deep'? as of late i have this longing in my heart for girlfriends that i can be completely open and honest with. friends that i know, and i mean really know will be there for me and support no matter what. friends that will tell me if im doing something wrong. friends that have the same values and are growing in their walk with the Lord. friends that can encourage me when im feeling low and friends that i can encourage in the same way. i neeeeeed people in my life that i can be real with. im so done with surfacy lovey-dovey type relationships. can i get an amen? i want to go deeper! i feel like in the past and when i was younger...i was always looking for the next person to add to my 'friend list' - like it was best if i had a ton of accquaintences rather than a few close friends. but now in this stage of life, being married and having small children, God is really and i mean reallllly showing me that when it comes to friendships, its 'quality and NOT quantity'. does anyone else feel the same way? i long for a friend that i can pray with, laugh with, cry with and just do life with serving our awesome God. so all of that to say, im really trusting God with this one. i mean how can i really just go up to someone and expect to just have this deep friendship with them? its really not something i can 'do' ya know? i know and believe that God desires community and intimacy within His body, so im so excited to see what Hes going to do as i continue to pray for friendships. oh and ps i think im going to be signing off facebook for awhile...so check back here to find out the latest with the jeromes :)
on a lighter note (haha i guess i sorta just jumped right in with the whole being open and honest thing...) my little baby Gibson James turned 12 weeks old yesterday! time is seriously flying by! not to mention my sweet Sophia is 2 1/2. seriously i can still remember the day i found out i was pregnant with her...wow! anyways, i guess its a good thing that i started this blog...what a fun way to document things going on in our lives and have a way to look back and reflect on all that God has done! well i should probably start thinking about what's for dinner...
trusting in Him,
kate :)
psalm 145:18-19 'the Lord is near to all who call on Him, to all who call on Him in truth. He fulfills the desire of those who fear Him; He also hears their cry and saves them.'
Kate, I totally agree with you. I feel like God has put the same desire in my heart for a long time now. I find it hard to just putting myself out there to make new friends, I am not the most outgoing person. I have been looking to join another small group, well Jared and I were looking for one at our church for young families but haven't actually tried any out yet. I also was thinking of finding a small group just for ladies, specifically moms, because I am finding that this journey as a mom is so hard to do alone. And that is how I have felt a lot of the time for a while now...alone.
ReplyDeleteSo anyways, I just want you to know you are NOT alone in feeling that way, I really understand and pray that God puts the same type of friendships in my life. I believe that is how we were created to be, in deep, raw connection with others, where we can be ourselves 100% and know that we are still loved and not judged at all. I feel like that is so hard to find. But I trust God will bring people into both of our lives like that.
I really loved reading your blog, thank you for your raw honesty. =)
Jacqui
I think I've been learning the same lesson the past few years being in ministry and starting over in a new state. You're not alone :)
ReplyDeleteGood luck with your blog! I've been blogging for a little bit too and love being able to document our life.